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Name: Grace
Country: United States
State: Massachusetts
Birthday: 1/23/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Rollerblading, reading, surfing the net... playing soccer (all the time), basketball...
Expertise: Sleeping, wasting time, cramming, eating, watching movies :)
Occupation: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
9/5/2002
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| Such a depressing song...
等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变
重新再来一遍
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
I~ only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So i
我不能只是be your friend
I just can’t be your friend
No,no,no,我不能只是做你的朋友
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| I think I might need to retire this xanga soon. It's served its purpose, and I don't know if I need it anymore.
Song that I was listening to just now:
DONOTS LYRICS
"Saccharine Smile"
She plays boys like a game of cards
And dances to the beat of breaking hearts but
She ain't no beauty queen to me
She's all wrapped up in plastic skin
Her bad disguise won't take me in cause
She ain't no beauty queen to me
I see through her smile
I don't trust these eyes
She's a walking lie
I see through her smile
She's as cold as ice
I'll stay away from
The girl with the saccharine smile
I don't believe a word from her dead lips
Don't like the way she moves her hips, no!
She ain't no sugarcube to me
And she knows she's better than the rest
Well, arrogance is godliness but
She ain't no beauty queen to me
She ain't no beauty queen to me - yeah!
I see through her smile
I don't trust these eyes
She's a walking lie
I see through her smile
She's not worth my while
And she don't touch me
The girl with the saccharine (smile)
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| Because I don't have anything better to do (other than study for this ridiculous test I have in 1.5 days... and have been crying over each night), I'm going to take a break and do something I stole of someone's website. That's right... I'm a slacker.. these are listed in no particular order
Thirteen random things you like:
1 turtles (espescially sea turtles)
2 when people play with my hair (lol)
3 hand holding? (even among friends its nice sometimes)
4 people who are ambitious
5 punk rock/ alternative?
6 when things I write look neat and organized (yay for OCDness)
7 the inquisitiveness and joyfulness of children
8 children's cartoons (avatar, ben 10, foster's home for imaginary kids, etc.)
9 soccer/futbol
10 the smell of the earth after it rains
11 artistically/musically talented people
12 people who aren't afraid to be themselves
13 writing poetry when the mood strikes
Twelve movies:
1 shaolin soccer
2 kung fu hustle
3 spanglish
4 Wall-E
5 Saving Face
6 The Incredibles
7 Crash
8 Imagine Me and You
9 Casino Royale
10 Juno
11 Finding Nemo
12 The Matrix (only the first one :) )
Eleven good bands or singers/musicians:
1 Mae
2 Koo Chung
3 Daft Punk
4 Relient K
5 Jay Chou
6 M-flo
7 Music from Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
8 Vivaldi, Beethoven, Bach, Mozart and Chopin
9 Brown Eyes
10 Diana Krall
11 Billie Holiday
Ten goals
1 learn ASL better
2 not let med school turn me into a dehumanized robot
3 rediscover joy of the simple things
4 take steps towards discovering myself
5 travel the world
6 work with children
7 learn to stand up for myself
8 take some risks towards things I want
9 learn to cook very well
10 learn to love myself
Nine things about you
1 idealist and dreamer
2 Christian (although dealing with some things right now)
3 tend to go to incredible lengths for my friends
4 insecure/neurotic
5 over-analyzer
6 have 3 birthmarks (one which is pink)
7 never wear shorts during the day
8 favorite color is dark blue
9 can't use the bathroom when people are talking to me
Eight favorite drinks:
1 peach oo-la-long by honest tea
2 oolong tea (the unsweetened kind...)
3 jasmine tea
4 diet pepsi? (lol more of a caffeine requirement)
5 hei song sa shi
6 midori sour
7 I ran out >_<
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Seven things you wear daily
1 glasses
2 watch
3 pants
4 underwear
5 t-shirt
6 a hoodie of some sort
7 shoes
Six things you don’t like
1 tardiness
2 bullies
3 feeling invisible
4 chicken eggs (ugh)
5 things that taste too sweet
6 driving and getting lost
Five favorite foods
1 creme brulee (delicious)
2 uni *drool*
3 taiwanese beef noodles
4 jap chae (sorry... but its true)
5 salmon
Four shows you watch
1 furturama
2 chuck
3 pushing daisies
4 heroes
Three celebrities you have a crush on
1 this section is going to be blank :)
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Two things you come in contact with everyday
1 laptop
2 my notes :)
One song you like right now
1 Miss Vintage - Temporary Like Me
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| Wow.. this new xanga is really getting far too complicated for me. What happened to the good old days where there was just one application??? Sighz.. I must be getting old.
I realize that almost no one reads xanga anymore, given the whole facebook craze, but sometimes I do like to look back on my past entries. They illustrate so much of who I was and they show me how much I've changed.
Recently, I've been thinking a lot about faith. My faith was never as strong as it could be, and long before college had even started, there were moments where I would struggle with what I believed. Still, I never imagined that it would leave me completely. Nowadays, I look at who I am, and I'm startled by what I see. When did my faith start taking a back seat to everything else that was going on in my life? My faith always used to be important to me, it defined me and it made me long to be a better person than this world dictates I should. Now though, I find it hard to pray and I find it even harder to submit wholly to the Lord. I can't define the exact moment my faith started to shift, but I do know several of the events that led to its weakening. Those of you who are close to me also know a lot about what happened and I can only ask that you please continue to pray for me in my walk.
I've changed a lot since starting medical school. A lot in ways that are quite amazing, and many who knew me before probably wouldn't recognize me now. In many ways, I don't even recognize who I am now. In all, the change in environment was good for me. I don't know what had made me so desperate for love, for acceptance and a familiarity which I feel eluded me for so much of my life that I was willing to sacrifice so much of myself to gain it. I was so desperate, so pathetic, so weak and so needy that as a result I lost sight of who I was. Being on my own, at medical school has changed me, and not necessarily in ways that I like. I've become more selfish, more self absorbed, and more reliant on the things of this world and less dependent upon Him. On the otherhand, it has made me a stronger individual, one more likely to stand up for myself in a confrontation and less willing to withstand the manipulations of others.
It scares me a little, because now when I think about death, I'm truly unsure about my future. In many ways, I need to become like a child again with my faith, completely dependent and looking towards the Lord for guidance. I write this as a plea: Please, humble this foolish servant. Mold me. Make me. Use me. Change me. I need you now more than ever before.
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